***For those who do not know what being 'team green' means....it simply means that we do not want to know the sex of our baby until delivery.
When I got pregnant the first time, I knew that I wanted to find out the sex. Nick did not want to find out. But our anatomy ultrasound was the day before my birthday and I batted my eyelashes and got a pretty awesome birthday gift--we found out we were having a little girl.
When I got pregnant again, Nick, of course did not want to find out the sex. But my reasoning behind finding out was, what if we have a boy? And all we have is girl stuff? So I won out and we found out that we were, in fact, having a little boy.
At our ultrasound (at 9:45am) for our third baby, we will tell the tech that we do not want to know the sex of our baby...and that will be incredibly hard for me to do.
I am a planner.
I loved being able to refer to 'our baby' by the name we had chosen for them. I loved being able to buy those first few special outfits, blankets, and little gifts. I loved planning a nursery and making things for the baby.
But, I feel it is only fair to give Nick the one thing he wanted in both previous pregnancies. He is excited to come out of that delivery room and announce to everyone what the baby is. And I am excited to find out on the day of delivery...after all...it is one of the last big surprises we can give ourselves.
That doesn't mean, I won't be sad after the ultrasound. Obviously, all I want is for our baby to be healthy, but it would also be nice if we walked out knowing whether this baby was a boy or a girl.
I have politely asked Nick a few times if he has changed his mind...but I know that he wants this. So, I want this too.
He deserves to have this!
Hopefully, after the ultrasound is over it will be easier. But I don't think the temptation will go away. Most people have the one ultrasound but with Colson I had quite a few ultrasounds at the end to monitor the growth of the baby because of my high blood pressure. I wouldn't be surprised if that happened with this pregnancy as well since over the weekend I had a dizziness/blurred vision episode (more on that later). It is going to be very hard to not sneak a peak at each one!
But I can do this. I WILL do this. In the end, it will all be worth it!