I am getting stir crazy, the kids are getting stir crazy and that combination can lead to some really long days.
The kids have been whiny and pushing every button imaginable. I have yelled. They have cried.
It's at the end of those days that I wish I could just erase them and pretend that they never happened.
Nick is now working up in Chicago so he is never home at the same time at night. Some days there is no traffic and it takes him an hour to get home, other days it takes him 2.
I can't plan a nice dinner for fear of it getting cold. The kids will sometimes eat dinner before us so they are not eating at 7:00.
Nick makes great sacrifices for us and I know that this drive sucks for him. It would be nice to be able to give him a nice dinner when he gets home. It makes me sad that I can't give him that simple thank you.
Things are just bumming me out and I try to not let it get to me but it does.
I think every in combination is what is making it so hard.
My weight loss? Yeah, what weight loss???
I haven't even been in the mood to concentrate of my food or calories. A lame excuse, probably. But I am trying to not knock myself down too much for failing at the first 2 weeks of my 'road to a better me'.
Now all of this is not to say there has been a lack of excitement around these parts. There have been good days and smiles and laughter. It has definitely not all been bad.
Little Miss has decided that she wants to rock on all 4's. I had to fight the urge to push her down. This mama is not ready for her baby...her last baby, to be crawling!
That being said... Hailey has mastered moving backwards. <insert sad face> As if rocking up to all 4's wasn't bad enough.
I think I am just going to duct tape her butt to the floor!
We finally removed the side rail to Colson's crib. It had been a long time coming but he transitioned very well! He has stayed in his bed and will call for is when he has to go potty or wants to come out.
Today is a new day.
I have counted my calories. I have tried some new activities with the kids. I am just trying to stay positive. It cannot stay cold forever.
I (we) will get out of this funk!
I think a lot of us are in the same funk as you. This has been a very different winter than we have had in years past. Very cold and lots of snow. I'm with you and more than ready to get outside with Emma and Alyx. I'm ready to go on our first "real" walk with Alyx outside. I get tired of "Mall" walking with her. We have had those days inside where i'm ready to pull my hair out and at the end of the day I feel so bad and want to completely erase it. But like you we have had lots of good days too. But so more than ready to get outside and play!!! Spring and Summer is coming...i'll count the days with you!!! =)
ReplyDeleteI hear ya. It's been hard for me too! I think having a new baby in the winter is really hard because then you feel even more stuck. It's almost March so it should be over soon though! (hopefully)
ReplyDeleteI cry at least once a day. Usually because I've yelled one too many times at Mackenzie or Erin's leaving work late again. This winter sucks and having a newborn and a crazy toddler doesn't mix well. Stir crazy, cabin fever, winter blues - I feel ya!! At least when they are fighting Hannah and Colson can play together. :) Needless to say even when it's 40 we go on a walk these days.
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