When Hannah was born I was the typical first time mom. I worried. I stressed. I had no idea if I was doing anything right.
When I went somewhere, I never went by myself with Hannah. I always had someone come with me.
When Colson came, I felt comfortable in the mom roll. It was very much like the Luvs commercials! I live the one where the first time mom packs everything under the sun when she leaves the house and with the second she crams Cheerios in her pocket and heads out the door! :oP
I often look back on never going to the store alone with Hannah and just how silly it was. I would love to go back in time and just suck it up and go with no help...because quite honestly it would have been a piece of cake compared to going out alone with two kiddos.
Now that I have three kiddos, going to the store alone is hardly ever an option. Am I chicken? Pretty much! Would I take two of the three? In a heartbeat! I would have no problem! I would own it and rock it! But taking all three scares the crap out of me.
Maybe if I had 4 kids (no! Don't get any ideas! We're done) I would look back and see how silly it was to not take the three out...just like it was after I had two. Who knows!? But the thought of taking all three somewhere! Ah!
I fear one kid running off in the parking lot. Or losing one in a store. I can only contain two of the three in a cart and its very scary to not have Hannah confined in something! She still does not listen all that well to the 'stay by me' command. And I am constantly telling her to 'get over here ' or 'Hannah stop'.
I can handle getting all three ready. I can handle feeding them all. I can handle the different schedules. The random wake up times. The diapers. The fits. The bickering. But going to the store alone with all three...yeah, not so much!
Taking them all to drop Hannah off at school and pick her up is about all I am willing to take on right now!
Am I alone? I sure hope not. :o/